You need to understand that I see patterns everywhere. I always have. I have learned to "attenuate the prominence" of them so that 1) I can get on with my daily life and be reasonably productive, and 2) so that the remaining ones that stand out are not "false positives."
A recurring theme in my material is dating. The reason why I am single at 41 is because I attenuate the prominence of patterns that I see. The signals given off in courtship are, pretty much by definition, muted. So as a consequence of attenuating the patterns that I see so that I might carry on a daily existence, I attenuate the patterns of courtship signals below the threshold of visibility. So I carry on oblivious to the fact that people are interested. That is why I am single despite being good-looking and a decent catch.
To carry on a show for an audience whose existence I am being asked to deduce is a cruel joke to me, because simply to speak to you reminds me that I am condemned to live in a world where not a single person will touch my arm and say: "This is a date," or "We're listening."
Like I said, 2009 is the year that good things happen for me. I will not speak to people who will not be seen in public with me. I will not attempt to carry on a relationship where plausible deniability denies me the knowledge that I am in a relationship.
I refuse to live in a no man's land.
I am not angry. I am merely informing you that I will not continue this way. I deserve an audience that will be seen in public with me.
2009 is the year that good things happen for me.
